Tagged by Cheryl. The other queen of random.
Anyway, here's 7 MORE random facts about me. Because I feel like typing but need a little direction. And why wouldn't you want to know more about me?
1. I love math. Love it more than is probably healthy. My brain loves numbers and equations. I took extra math in both high school and college, just for fun. And because the cutest football/soccer player in HS sat behind me in math. Both years, all year. I loved that teacher.
2. I enjoy organizing. But only if I don't have to. I try to organize before it gets to the 'have to' stage so that it is still fun.
3. My name is Samoan. And for that reason alone, I always felt like a bigger part of me was meant to be an Island girl. Unfortunately my tanning abilities remind me that I'm still a translucent white girl with a polynesian name.
4. I loved my husband before we ever met in person.
5. I over analyze everything. I preplan conversations and agonize over nerdy things I say (which weren't planned) afterward. Sometimes for days.
6. I have a 3 year supply of laundry soap in my garage. AT least 3 years worth, possibly more.
7. I am a pretty awesome chef. Like the best on the planet, so says my 7 year old.
Seven people I would like to tag for this Random Meme: Whoever wants to can. But I'm not gonna make ya!
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Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Random Bits
1. Do you like blue cheese? Yes. Especially in my summer lemon salad. Delish!
2. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? Nope, but once when I was pregnant I dreamed I was trying to quit smoking and couldn't. I kept telling everyone I was craving a cigarette. Scariest part, I could smell cigarette smoke in my dream and totally thought it was real. I had to have my husband remind me that I wasn't a smoker. He was none to happy about being woken at 3 am.
3. Do you own a gun? Not me personally.
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Ice and more ice. Matter of fact forget the drink and bring me a cup of slightly wet ice.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointment? No
6. What do you think of hot dogs? I like them, if I don't think about it too much.
7. Favorite Christmas Song? This one that I sang in the Ward Christmas Program the ONE year I sang with them. I love it so, but I can't remember the name.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water
9. Can you do push-ups? Uh, yeah. Remember last Wednesday and Friday, I had to do 200 of them? My back and shoulders and arms have just started to forgive me.
10. What is your favorite movie? I don't have a current one. When I was 12 I rented Troop Beverly Hills every Friday for 6 months. And then in college Julie and I watched Fools Rush In like every Friday and Saturday and Sunday and Monday for like 3 months straight.
11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? My wedding ring. But I don't always wear it. I also have lots of 2nd favorite pieces too.
12. Favorite hobby? Blogging and jewelry making and cooking and scrapbooking and organizing and and and exercising.
13. Do you work with people who idolize you? Um no. Most days I'm the mean un-fun mom
14. Do you have ADD? No. Yes. What was the question? See #12 I think yes, how else would I explain my lack of ability to stick to one task long enough to finish? Unless it counts that I usually stop when someone interrupts and needs something else and I forget what I was doing previously and find some other half finished thing to work on.
15. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself? My lack of trust in my own opinions.
16. What’s your middle name? Renae
17. Name three thoughts at this moment: What am I making for dinner? How many scouts will come today? Why am I typing on my blog instead of making dinner and getting ready for the scouts?
18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday: 70 cent chocolate chips! (seriously! Albertsons when you buy 10 bags)
19. Current worry right now? If I make jewelry and list it on Etsy, will people buy it???? Do I trust USPS enough to put my business deliveries in their hands?
21. Current hate right now? (hey! Where was question #20?) Aunt Flo. I'll agree with Cheryl on both accounts
22. Favorite place to be? With good friends/family.
23. How did you bring in the New Year? I can't remember!
24. Where would you like to go? Fiji, Australia and/or New Zealand, followed by Samoa
25. Name three people who will complete this? No idea. Three people with time on their hands? Or three people with NO time on their hands? Like me?
26. Whose answer do you want to read the most? Anyone
27. What color shirt are you wearing? Turquoise and leopard print. Seriously. With purple pants. I still haven't changed out of my workout clothes. Good thing though I've been running around all day.
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I would surely fall right out of bed. I prefer 1000 thread count cotton
29. Can you whistle? Yep
30. Favorite color? I love every color. Especially RED and purple
31. Would you be a pirate? Aside from the stealing, sure they have great treasure chests of jewelry
32. What songs do you sing in the shower? John Mayer, waiting on the world (to change) great acoustics in the shower
33. Favorite girl’s name? Savannah
34. Favorite boy’s name? Jeremiah
35. What’s in your pocket right now? Nothing
36. Last thing (Person) that made you laugh? Elijah wearing a neck full of our lanyard samples
37. Best bed sheets as a child? Mickey Mouse
38. Worst injury you’ve ever had? Once, while attending Culinary School, I nearly lost my right thumb to a chainsaw while doing an ice sculpture.
39. What is your favorite snack? Cheese and water.
40. Favorite thing to do on Sundays? Have a 'cheat' meal.
41. Who is your loudest friend? I dunno? Maybe it's me.
42. How many dogs do you have? Two. A welsh corgi named Sydney and a big black retriever named Ratu (Fijian for Big Chief)
43. Does someone have a crush on you? My husband. He thinks I'm a babe.
45. What is your favorite book? (where was #44?) Too tough to answer. So many factors.
46. What is your favorite candy? Homemade caramels or homemade fudge (particularly candy cane, coconut with almonds, caramel pecan and cookies and cream)
47. What is your favorite sports team? Cougars
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? Families can Be together Forever
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Sleeping.
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? Wow! This is the closest I've come to falling off the bed without actually falling!
2. Have you ever smoked a cigarette? Nope, but once when I was pregnant I dreamed I was trying to quit smoking and couldn't. I kept telling everyone I was craving a cigarette. Scariest part, I could smell cigarette smoke in my dream and totally thought it was real. I had to have my husband remind me that I wasn't a smoker. He was none to happy about being woken at 3 am.
3. Do you own a gun? Not me personally.
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Ice and more ice. Matter of fact forget the drink and bring me a cup of slightly wet ice.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointment? No
6. What do you think of hot dogs? I like them, if I don't think about it too much.
7. Favorite Christmas Song? This one that I sang in the Ward Christmas Program the ONE year I sang with them. I love it so, but I can't remember the name.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water
9. Can you do push-ups? Uh, yeah. Remember last Wednesday and Friday, I had to do 200 of them? My back and shoulders and arms have just started to forgive me.
10. What is your favorite movie? I don't have a current one. When I was 12 I rented Troop Beverly Hills every Friday for 6 months. And then in college Julie and I watched Fools Rush In like every Friday and Saturday and Sunday and Monday for like 3 months straight.
11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? My wedding ring. But I don't always wear it. I also have lots of 2nd favorite pieces too.
12. Favorite hobby? Blogging and jewelry making and cooking and scrapbooking and organizing and and and exercising.
13. Do you work with people who idolize you? Um no. Most days I'm the mean un-fun mom
14. Do you have ADD? No. Yes. What was the question? See #12 I think yes, how else would I explain my lack of ability to stick to one task long enough to finish? Unless it counts that I usually stop when someone interrupts and needs something else and I forget what I was doing previously and find some other half finished thing to work on.
15. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself? My lack of trust in my own opinions.
16. What’s your middle name? Renae
17. Name three thoughts at this moment: What am I making for dinner? How many scouts will come today? Why am I typing on my blog instead of making dinner and getting ready for the scouts?
18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday: 70 cent chocolate chips! (seriously! Albertsons when you buy 10 bags)
19. Current worry right now? If I make jewelry and list it on Etsy, will people buy it???? Do I trust USPS enough to put my business deliveries in their hands?
21. Current hate right now? (hey! Where was question #20?) Aunt Flo. I'll agree with Cheryl on both accounts
22. Favorite place to be? With good friends/family.
23. How did you bring in the New Year? I can't remember!
24. Where would you like to go? Fiji, Australia and/or New Zealand, followed by Samoa
25. Name three people who will complete this? No idea. Three people with time on their hands? Or three people with NO time on their hands? Like me?
26. Whose answer do you want to read the most? Anyone
27. What color shirt are you wearing? Turquoise and leopard print. Seriously. With purple pants. I still haven't changed out of my workout clothes. Good thing though I've been running around all day.
28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I would surely fall right out of bed. I prefer 1000 thread count cotton
29. Can you whistle? Yep
30. Favorite color? I love every color. Especially RED and purple
31. Would you be a pirate? Aside from the stealing, sure they have great treasure chests of jewelry
32. What songs do you sing in the shower? John Mayer, waiting on the world (to change) great acoustics in the shower
33. Favorite girl’s name? Savannah
34. Favorite boy’s name? Jeremiah
35. What’s in your pocket right now? Nothing
36. Last thing (Person) that made you laugh? Elijah wearing a neck full of our lanyard samples
37. Best bed sheets as a child? Mickey Mouse
38. Worst injury you’ve ever had? Once, while attending Culinary School, I nearly lost my right thumb to a chainsaw while doing an ice sculpture.
39. What is your favorite snack? Cheese and water.
40. Favorite thing to do on Sundays? Have a 'cheat' meal.
41. Who is your loudest friend? I dunno? Maybe it's me.
42. How many dogs do you have? Two. A welsh corgi named Sydney and a big black retriever named Ratu (Fijian for Big Chief)
43. Does someone have a crush on you? My husband. He thinks I'm a babe.
45. What is your favorite book? (where was #44?) Too tough to answer. So many factors.
46. What is your favorite candy? Homemade caramels or homemade fudge (particularly candy cane, coconut with almonds, caramel pecan and cookies and cream)
47. What is your favorite sports team? Cougars
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? Families can Be together Forever
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Sleeping.
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? Wow! This is the closest I've come to falling off the bed without actually falling!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
WHAT have I done!?
I was all for this jewelry selling bit. Excited actually. Now I'm starting to get into the nitty gritty of it and I have a headache all the time!
I loved accounting in High School. I did bookkeeping for Rite Aid drugstore while I was in high school. They had a lead bookkeeper that was teaching me the ropes. I loved it.
I love organizing and keeping track of things, I have spreadsheets for beads I've bought. I'm so behind though it is making my head spin. I have the stress of back logging the beads I've bought before business, hurrying to do the ones I've bought recently (under the name of the business) and I told myself I have to do all this BEFORE I make anymore jewelry.
I seriously need to post some pictures and list on Etsy. I think that's what I'm supposed to do. I thought about selling off my blog but I think more people would feel comfortable buying from me on Etsy. With an actual shopping cart and shipping included. Aye Caramba!
I'm still certain that I want to do this but I worry that I'm trying to do to much all at once. Also as soon as I sit down to the computer to do ANY sort of 'work' the kids are at eachothers throats and my patience goes out the window!
I am toying with the idea of keeping bead inventory in a notebook that can travel with me, after I get all the computer invoice information typed in. I don't know what to do. Wasn't this supposed to be fun? Will it ever be fun again? Or is that business? Work work work!
Separately and without repercussion all the aspects of this business are fun, but now it has a lot more meaning. The IRS would have to see receipts, books well kept and inventory managed to agree that it is a hobby turned business.
I need a business advisor, or an accountant or a beader who successfully turned their hobby into a business, or All of the above to help me get direction before I'm so off the path I feel like abandoning the whole idea!
I loved accounting in High School. I did bookkeeping for Rite Aid drugstore while I was in high school. They had a lead bookkeeper that was teaching me the ropes. I loved it.
I love organizing and keeping track of things, I have spreadsheets for beads I've bought. I'm so behind though it is making my head spin. I have the stress of back logging the beads I've bought before business, hurrying to do the ones I've bought recently (under the name of the business) and I told myself I have to do all this BEFORE I make anymore jewelry.
I seriously need to post some pictures and list on Etsy. I think that's what I'm supposed to do. I thought about selling off my blog but I think more people would feel comfortable buying from me on Etsy. With an actual shopping cart and shipping included. Aye Caramba!
I'm still certain that I want to do this but I worry that I'm trying to do to much all at once. Also as soon as I sit down to the computer to do ANY sort of 'work' the kids are at eachothers throats and my patience goes out the window!
I am toying with the idea of keeping bead inventory in a notebook that can travel with me, after I get all the computer invoice information typed in. I don't know what to do. Wasn't this supposed to be fun? Will it ever be fun again? Or is that business? Work work work!
Separately and without repercussion all the aspects of this business are fun, but now it has a lot more meaning. The IRS would have to see receipts, books well kept and inventory managed to agree that it is a hobby turned business.
I need a business advisor, or an accountant or a beader who successfully turned their hobby into a business, or All of the above to help me get direction before I'm so off the path I feel like abandoning the whole idea!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Fffffjlkejilmmmmpppp- Brain Dump
I've heard of Overwhelmed and Underwhelmed but like is there such thing as being just whelmed?
I have a gazillion things on my mind. Lots of things to say but as soon as I sit down everything just turns to mush. It's list time.
*Jewelry Lots of it, I took 289 pictures this weekend. I need to post them.
*I got a request for some jewelry submissions for the jan/09 issue. seriously. A request?!
*I have to know how Eclipse ends. Today. But then how will I resist Breaking Dawn?
* There is a load of laundry spilling out of the boys closet as I type. Start it. Fold the one in the clean basket.
*Lester is out of salsa! he NEEDS me to make more. His life may depend on it.
*Hoses. I have to keep moving the hoses around. We have irrigation water today.
*Giveaway prizes must be mailed. I have one last one sitting on the desk.
*I have ideas for 6 or so bracelets rattling around my head. I wish I were a better pencil artist so I could 'save' the idea for later, before I lose it.
*baby clothes. I missed the jbf sale AGAIN. I am not keeping them around for the next one. Gymboree stuff can go on Ebay the rest needs a home.
*speaking of Ebay I have some Stila make up that I want to list, great brushes. AWESOME brushes and perfect gorgeous colors. I have too many of each.
*business cards. I have to find a place to print them.
*jewelry packaging, I have my idea now to find a supplier.
*business licensing needs to be finished. This friday off thing is throwing a wrench in my plans. I need to place an order but I need my retail/sales tax ID to do it.
*acquire an accounting ledger book. I'm doing this right. But maybe I don't want to know that I spend more on supplies than I make on sales. I certainly cringe at the thought of recording all my bead spending habits. And what about all the stuff I already have? How do I expense it out without receipts and and and and that reminds me that I haven't recorded purchases and bead prices in my database (that I started when it was only a hobby, OCD) in 3 months.
*Fudge. I need to make some as a thank you gift. But which flavor? Should be easy enough, but it totally isn't.
*PTA stuff. I'm going to be in charge of teacher appreciation this year. There is a surprise, I could be in charge of the pre school luncheon. But I don't know and I haven't been contacted and I don't know who to call.
*Scouts. I'm totally on my own now. I keep telling myself we should take summer 'off' and wait until we're back in the swing of things. But summer is also perfect for doing outside stuff in the middle of the day.
I have a gazillion things on my mind. Lots of things to say but as soon as I sit down everything just turns to mush. It's list time.
*Jewelry Lots of it, I took 289 pictures this weekend. I need to post them.
*I got a request for some jewelry submissions for the jan/09 issue. seriously. A request?!
*I have to know how Eclipse ends. Today. But then how will I resist Breaking Dawn?
* There is a load of laundry spilling out of the boys closet as I type. Start it. Fold the one in the clean basket.
*Lester is out of salsa! he NEEDS me to make more. His life may depend on it.
*Hoses. I have to keep moving the hoses around. We have irrigation water today.
*Giveaway prizes must be mailed. I have one last one sitting on the desk.
*I have ideas for 6 or so bracelets rattling around my head. I wish I were a better pencil artist so I could 'save' the idea for later, before I lose it.
*baby clothes. I missed the jbf sale AGAIN. I am not keeping them around for the next one. Gymboree stuff can go on Ebay the rest needs a home.
*speaking of Ebay I have some Stila make up that I want to list, great brushes. AWESOME brushes and perfect gorgeous colors. I have too many of each.
*business cards. I have to find a place to print them.
*jewelry packaging, I have my idea now to find a supplier.
*business licensing needs to be finished. This friday off thing is throwing a wrench in my plans. I need to place an order but I need my retail/sales tax ID to do it.
*acquire an accounting ledger book. I'm doing this right. But maybe I don't want to know that I spend more on supplies than I make on sales. I certainly cringe at the thought of recording all my bead spending habits. And what about all the stuff I already have? How do I expense it out without receipts and and and and that reminds me that I haven't recorded purchases and bead prices in my database (that I started when it was only a hobby, OCD) in 3 months.
*Fudge. I need to make some as a thank you gift. But which flavor? Should be easy enough, but it totally isn't.
*PTA stuff. I'm going to be in charge of teacher appreciation this year. There is a surprise, I could be in charge of the pre school luncheon. But I don't know and I haven't been contacted and I don't know who to call.
*Scouts. I'm totally on my own now. I keep telling myself we should take summer 'off' and wait until we're back in the swing of things. But summer is also perfect for doing outside stuff in the middle of the day.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
When the going gets tough, the tough go
Crazy!
Shopping. In their own home!
Running! Or more truthfully, jogging with walking bursts throughout!
Treasure hunting, under beds!
Cleaning!
Kickboxing!
Dancing!
For a Picnic with friends!
Web surfing!
Scripture reading!
Garden watering!
Weeding!
Praying!
Journaling!
Brainstorming. For more stress relieving activities!
And hopefully never again, to the Carb Cupboard!
Shopping. In their own home!
Running! Or more truthfully, jogging with walking bursts throughout!
Treasure hunting, under beds!
Cleaning!
Kickboxing!
Dancing!
For a Picnic with friends!
Web surfing!
Scripture reading!
Garden watering!
Weeding!
Praying!
Journaling!
Brainstorming. For more stress relieving activities!
And hopefully never again, to the Carb Cupboard!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Half Made
Do you ever have those days where everything you do gets half done?
I'm in the middle of one.
I could walk into any room in the house and find something that was left half done. I have great intentions when I start, and then someone starts fighting/making a mess/wants to play outside/is hungry/needs me to hold a piece of the bathroom sink/take the kids out of the bathroom/go to Lowes (AGAIN)/make a phone call, and on and on. So the project is left. And when I finish referring a fight/cleaning a mess/putting on shoes/going outside/feeding/assembling/entertaining/shopping/talking/etc. etc. I am in a different room and I see a project that needs finishing. One that I started hours ago. So I start the attempt to finish and the whole cycle starts over again.
I feel so scattered in my thinking, half hearted on my attempts (because who knows when I'll finish) and almost near the point of wondering 'why bother?' . I need a boost of energy and a houseful of secret elves to help me plow through the clutter and laundry. Instead I'm stuck with a de-caff root beer and a houseful of slightly taller less neat disaster creating children. Oops gotta run, there has been a toy-nado sighting, toy-nado Eli just passed through their bedroom in a hurry.
I'm in the middle of one.
I could walk into any room in the house and find something that was left half done. I have great intentions when I start, and then someone starts fighting/making a mess/wants to play outside/is hungry/needs me to hold a piece of the bathroom sink/take the kids out of the bathroom/go to Lowes (AGAIN)/make a phone call, and on and on. So the project is left. And when I finish referring a fight/cleaning a mess/putting on shoes/going outside/feeding/assembling/entertaining/shopping/talking/etc. etc. I am in a different room and I see a project that needs finishing. One that I started hours ago. So I start the attempt to finish and the whole cycle starts over again.
I feel so scattered in my thinking, half hearted on my attempts (because who knows when I'll finish) and almost near the point of wondering 'why bother?' . I need a boost of energy and a houseful of secret elves to help me plow through the clutter and laundry. Instead I'm stuck with a de-caff root beer and a houseful of slightly taller less neat disaster creating children. Oops gotta run, there has been a toy-nado sighting, toy-nado Eli just passed through their bedroom in a hurry.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Who are you calling short??
I was at Walgreens looking at some make-up a few weeks ago. The 'beauty consultant' rushed over to help me. I was looking for nail polish and lipstick (I had some coupons and they had a sale). She grabbed a tube of mascara and said, "do NOT buy this, I've had lots of customers return it!".
Me; "okay thanks, what mascara do you recommend" (I was making polite small talk and engaging her about something she knew. BAD choice).
She squinted and looked right at my eyes. "Well I can tell you have really really REALLY short eyelashes, like me" (bats her eyes and blond microscopic lashes half painted black) "I'd recommend this one, it'll make you look like you have false eyelashes." I said, "thanks, I'll try that when my current tube runs out". And then bought what I came for and left quickly.
I've had experiences at make-up counters that would make most people drop their stuff where they stand and leave. I felt guilty (unnecessarily so) and bought the stuff anyway. But this day was different. I didn't buy her recommended mascara and my coupons made it so I actually made $$$ for buying the stuff, so it's different. Right?
Today, I put on mascara and noticed that my lashes were brushing against the insides ofmy sunglasses. And validated my thoughts that all those 'really's' were totally uncalled for.
Me; "okay thanks, what mascara do you recommend" (I was making polite small talk and engaging her about something she knew. BAD choice).
She squinted and looked right at my eyes. "Well I can tell you have really really REALLY short eyelashes, like me" (bats her eyes and blond microscopic lashes half painted black) "I'd recommend this one, it'll make you look like you have false eyelashes." I said, "thanks, I'll try that when my current tube runs out". And then bought what I came for and left quickly.
I've had experiences at make-up counters that would make most people drop their stuff where they stand and leave. I felt guilty (unnecessarily so) and bought the stuff anyway. But this day was different. I didn't buy her recommended mascara and my coupons made it so I actually made $$$ for buying the stuff, so it's different. Right?
Today, I put on mascara and noticed that my lashes were brushing against the insides ofmy sunglasses. And validated my thoughts that all those 'really's' were totally uncalled for.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
I should be sleeping
But I can't. My mind is racing. I cleaned out a cupboard in our office and folded a bunch of fabric. And now I think I may be losing my mind. I could have sworn that I bought 2 yards of this really cute fabric and I cannot find it anywhere! Kind of like the cute stamps I am still looking for. I'm really not a disorganized person. But what is happening to all this stuff?
These shoes a metaphor for my life
*EDITOR's Note* Writer was very sleep deprived, you may need to be going on 4 hours of sleep to understand this post*I bought these totally adorable and cheap shoes while out on a Mom Time Out trip the other night. My husband was not with me. I don't think I've bought a pair of shoes without him since we married. And if I have, there is a very good chance that they were cute and impractical and painful to 'break in'.
See he doesn't believe a pair of shoes should require blisters of the wearer. He's always been an advocate of good shoes. His Father was the same way. He'd often remind his children; you only have one pair of feet, take care of them. My late father-in-law may have been the ultimate penny pincher but when it came to shoes, he spared no expense for a good pair of shoes. My husband is the same way.
As I was walking tonight (wearing these shoes, because I bought them and blisters be danged I am going to wear them!) I started thinking about how my shoe choices have changed since the beginning of my marriage. I began to draw some interesting parallels.
These Shoes remind me a lot of my pre-marriage years. Cute, practical looking, comfortable looking and a little off the cuff as far as 'fitting in' with other things.
Under the surface they reveal more, they may look comfortable and easy going but there is a lot of work that goes into making it look that way. They heel is stiff (my stubbornness) and must be broken in, there is little to no arch support and walking in them is more work than the average walk in the park. Keeping them on my feet as I walked put a lot of stress on them.
I'll still keep them, wear them with caution and be ever ever ever so grateful for the shoes my husband has helped me pick out and my bare feet.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Just ask!
People say this, "if you need anything, JUST ask" like it should be an easy thing. Maybe it is for some or even most people. It isn't for me.
I don't know where it came from, but I'm afraid to 'just ask' for pretty much anything. From anyone. I've actually improved a lot since being married to Lester. He won't stand for me cowering in the corner when I should be asking a sales associate to get me a pair of shoes from the top shelf.
I have the most difficult time asking for things that seem to put another person out for my sake. I hate it. I really really really hate it. But I've felt this way for so long I don't know how to think, feel or act any other way. AND the anxiety involved with asking makes me reconsider the worth of the thing I am asking for. Lots of times, it just isn't worth it.
I don't know where it came from, but I'm afraid to 'just ask' for pretty much anything. From anyone. I've actually improved a lot since being married to Lester. He won't stand for me cowering in the corner when I should be asking a sales associate to get me a pair of shoes from the top shelf.
I have the most difficult time asking for things that seem to put another person out for my sake. I hate it. I really really really hate it. But I've felt this way for so long I don't know how to think, feel or act any other way. AND the anxiety involved with asking makes me reconsider the worth of the thing I am asking for. Lots of times, it just isn't worth it.
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